Its been nearly a month since I last wrote anything on this blog and I apologise. I made the conscious decision to contribute more regularly to this a few months back and, through a number of recent events in my personal and professional life, its been hard keeping on top of it.
My diary over the last three weeks has been like a dot-to-dot, being here and there, doing this and that, and its left me knackered. Whilst I get something out of hanging out with people socially and carrying out tasks involving skills I've been blessed with, its tired me out a bit. I need to use the next couple of months to chill a bit more and add a bit of a balance to what I do daily or I'm going to wear myself out, just like people close to me in the past have.
There's the description of busy people "burning the candle at both ends". I'm not a believer in that lifestyle but lately I've become a victim of it. How ironic, eh. Its now a case of trying to remind myself who I'm following here - is it me? Is it other people? I'm pretty assertive, I can say no to things, but why all of a sudden don't I? Am I insecure about things? Do I feel the need to prove anything? These are just questions I ask myself and I find myself saying "Probably" for some of them.
In truth, I've been a little lost lately, which brings me back to the question of who or what I'm following. And I can't answer with certainty, which isn't like me, but I reckon its me. How other people do it, I don't know and I don't want to know but I should be following Christ.
Check this out:
Matt 4:18-20 - Now as Jesus was walking by the Sea of Galilee, He saw two brothers, Simon who was called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea; for they were fishermen. He said to them, "Follow me, and I will make you fishers of people!" Immediately they left their nets and followed Him.
Mk 10:52 - Then Jesus asked him, "What do you want me to do for you?" The blind man said to him, "Rabbouni, I want to see again."Jesus told him, "Go. Your faith has made you well." At once the man could see again, and he began to follow Jesus down the road.
John 21:22 Jesus said to him, "If it is my will for him to remain until I come back, how does that concern you? You must follow me!"
Its time I sorted out my priorities and get a steady balance in my life. Do you need to do the same with yours?
I'll leave that with you just now....